I am so upset and angry this morning I do not know where to begin. I am questioning damn near everything about me and what I'm doing with myself and it freaking hurts. I'm hard pressed to think of a single aspect of my current life that isn't pissing me off. If I had been neglecting things, I'd gladly place the blame on myself, but I don't. Not this time. I feel like I have been doing my damned level best and have never felt so freaking ineffective. I'm not sad about it, just angry. I'm feeling the need to blow it all up and start over. Fuck this.
I have no intention to turn this into a rant-blog, but suffice it to say I am in heavy vent-mode this morning. This should hopefully be the first and last post of this type.
Thanks.
-d.
Update: 12:28 PM - I've tasted a little success today, so I feel a little better. Still in a lot of physical pain, though. I think I'm going to pop a flexoril when I get home, and plan on an early bedtime. This day needs to end. Now.
